Main bada hokar Shah Rukh Khan banunga!!!!!

Like thousands of other young boys in India, Sahil had also come to Mumbai to become a hero. Like all of them, he also had a big dream. The dream of becoming Shah Rukh Khan one day.

Sahil was born and brought up in the small town of Phulera in Rajasthan. From the time he remembers, everyone who used to visit his place used to tell his parents, "Aapka beta itna sundar hai. Ye zarur bada hokar hero banega." So, from the time Sahil can remember, all he wanted to become, was a hero. Every time someone asked him, "Beta, aap bade hokar kya banoge?". He used to say, “Main bada hokar Shah Rukh Khan banunga.”

The only child to his parents, Sahil lived a luxurious life in Phulera. His father worked in the Indian Railways and had managed to build a small house for them with his decent Government salary. Being the only child, Sahil was treated like a prince by his parents. His father had bought him a bike on loan, so that he could attend his college in Jaipur without having to travel by train.

On completing his graduation, Sahil told his parents that he now wants to go to Mumbai to become a hero. His parents were taken aback. They didn't know that the Sahil would take his childhood dream seriously enough to pursue a career out of it. His parents flatly refused. But he didn't give up. He pleaded, he begged, but they didn't agree. So, he stopped talking to them, stopped eating and even stopped drinking water. And one day, he had to be hospitalized.

Finally, his mother gave up and convinced his father to permit him to go to Mumbai. Though his father let him go, but he voiced his disagreement even while saying his goodbyes.

Finally, Sahil was here, in the city of dreams – Mumbai. His mother's second cousin worked as a light-man in one of the studios in Mumbai. He had invited Sahil to stay with him and had also arranged a meeting for him with one of the producers.

Next day Sahil wore his best clothes for the meeting – a replica of one of the shirts that Shah Rukh had worn in DDLJ, which he had especially purchased from Delhi. He was undoubtedly a good looking boy, but so were a hundreds of others who came to Mumbai everyday to become a hero.

The producer's name was Bhatia. And like every other name in Bollywood, even his was suffixed with a ‘ji’. So, he was Bhatiaji.

Bhatiaji took one look at Sahil and told his uncle, “Bhai aapka bhaanja dikhta toh bada achcha hai. Ye toh badi aasaani se hero ban jayega. Ek kaam karo, ise aath baje mere ghar bhej do. Ek script ready hai, suna denge. Pasand aa gayi toh picture bhi shuru kar denge.”

Sahil's uncle thanked Bhatiaji and touched his feet in gratitude. He asked Sahil to do the same and Sahil obliged.

Sahil was overjoyed. He had not expected it to be this easy. He got out of the studio and called his mother and friends to tell them the good news.

He got ready at 6 that evening and took a taxi to Bhatiaji’s place. Bhatiaji started talking to Sahil about how big a hero he’ll make of him one day. As time passed, Sahil started to grow a little uncomfortable with Bhatiaji’s physical proximity to him. And the moment he realized what Bhatiaji was upto, he ran out of there.

Next day Sahil's uncle came back from the studio and shouted at Sahil for misbehaving with Bhatiaji. “Itne achche aadmi se teri pehchaan karwayi aur unhone picture ke liye thode paise kum dene ki baat ki toh tu waha se uthkar chala aaya. Arre, log toh pehli picture ke paise tak nahi lete. Kitni mushkil se tere bare mein baat kit hi aur tu unki bezzati karke aa gaya.”

“Mamaji aisi baat nahi hai. Darasal unhone......”

“Abhi chal aur maafi maang unse.”

Sahil refused to apologize. His uncle was hurt and angry with his behavior and asked him to make his own arrangements. Sahil left.

Sahil was now one and a half years old in Mumbai. He was out of money and out of work. He did odd jobs for his survival but never asked his father for any money. Every time his mother and friends asked him that when was his movie going to release, he used to reply saying that the project being very big, it is going to take considerable time. He was frustrated of not having any work or money, disgusted of living in a dingy chawl, sick of the bad roadside food he had to eat everyday, of falling ill every now and then, of running all over the town in the locals for auditions, of answering his family and his friends. He was tiered of struggling.

On several occasions he thought of going back to Phulera. But the sheer thought of being looked at as a failure held him back to this city.

Everywhere he went, the people either refused to give him a role or asked him to compromise.

One day Sahil told himself that enough is enough. If sleeping with a producer just once could get him the break he wanted and solve all his problems, then he would do it. After all, how bad could it be? Doing it just once. He wouldn't even remember this incident a few months down the line.

Finally, he made up his mind and called the secretary of the last producer he had met and said that he is willing to come for the meeting.

He reached the producer’s flat at 10 that night and left at 4 in the morning. That’s what the producer's servant said when police came to enquire about Sahil.

His mother and his friends called him several times after that night but every time his phone was switched off. That’s when his parents came to Mumbai to lodge a complaint for their missing son. Even after months of extensive search and identifying hundreds of bodies, neither Sahil, nor his body was not found.

Mumbai lost another Shah Rukh Khan amidst the bright lights lit in its dark nights.

I was on my way to Mumbai after a week long holiday at Lucknow with my parents. It was a much deserved break that I'd taken after slogging for over one and a half years at Deutsche Bank. My parents had given me an ultimatum this time saying that if i don't visit them soon, they would disown me. My holiday was over and I was heading back to Mumbai on the Pushpak Express.
I bought a newspaper as soon as I got up in the morning. I'd the whole day on the train with no company and nothing to do.
While I was engrossed reading the newspaper, I heard someone say, "So, what's the headline?"
I said, "Sorry. You talking to me?"
"Yes I am."
"Nothing much. The regular."
"Hmmm.. By the way, I'm Arun."
“I’m Pia.’
“Pleased to meet you Pia.”
“So, you read the newspaper everyday?"
From there we began talking and the topics ranged from weather to Mumbai to Lucknow to work to movies and what not.
I was travelling by train after long and didn't have a anything with which I could kill my time. He proved to be good company. He looked of about 35, had come to visit his grandparents at Lucknow, worked in Tata Chemicals, was extremely attractive and was a very smooth talker. It had been quite sometime since I'd spoken to someone like him. Actually it'd been quite sometime since I'd spoken to any guy. So I thought, why not?
In the course of our conversation we realised that both of us have our offices at Fort. So, while parting ways, we exchanged numbers promising each other that we'll catch up for lunch someday.
I lived alone in Mumbai for the last three years. Due to my hectic work schedule I never made friends here. There were colleagues with whom I used to hang out sometimes. I thought several times about calling Arun for lunch but gave up on the thought finding it too desperate. One day, I gave in. I called him and we agreed to meet for lunch the next day.
One lunch lead to another and we started meeting often.
Every time we met, we had a terrific time together. I'd started to fall for him.
One day I asked him if he would join me for a movie. He bluntly refused. I was taken aback by his reaction but I didn't question him further. The same night he SMSed saying he will join me for the movie.
We started going out more often. Movies, dinners, and of course, lunches.
One July afternoon he called me and said, "Pia, have you seen to Marine Drive when its raining?"
I said, "No".
"Its beautiful. You must see it. You want to go today, after work?"
"Yes".
It indeed was beautiful. We were walking in the rains without an umbrella by the sea. I must admit that I'd never thought Mumbai could be this beautiful. While we were walking Arun held my hand. He said, "Pia, I'm really happy when I'm with you. I see your face and forget all my worries. You have helped me find the old Arun. The one who likes movies, the one who hangs out with his friends, the one who loves to laugh. Earlier I used to visit Marine Drive every alternate day during monsoons. But in the last five years this is the first time I'm coming here. And you know why? Because of you. I really like it with you Pia. I really do." And then, he kissed me.
There was an awkward silence that followed the kiss.
"Its getting late. I think you should leave now."
I found it weird because it was only 9 o'clock and there were times when we had stayed together much later than that.
Next day he called me and apologised for kissing me in the middle of the road without my permission.
I said, "Don't apologise. I'm glad you did. Otherwise I would have."
We met for lunch the same day. Everything was going perfect. Just like in a fairy tale.
A few days later I called him. Someone else answered his mobile.
I said, "Hello, could I speak to Arun."
"He is on the other phone. Could I take a message?"
"Please ask him to call me back."
"Whom shall I say called?"
I found it strange that Arun didn't have my number saved on his mobile. I said, "Its Pia. May I know whom am I talking to?"
"I'm Chitra. Arun's wife."
The last thing I remember was crashing on the bed. I think I was numb for I can't remember how long.
I got up from the bed when the alarm rang. I took one look at my phone, to reaffirm what had happened last night, then got dressed and left for work.
Arun called during the day to say that he wants to meet me. We met the same evening.
The moment he arrived, I asked him, "Why didn't you tell me you were married?"
"Pia, why don't you just sit" he said while touching my arm.
"DO NOT TOUCH ME. Just answer my question."
"Alright. Listen. Initially I didn't tell you because I didn't find the need to. When I did find the need, I feared losing you. It was getting difficult to stay with Chitra under the same roof. I was stressed, frustrated and that's when I met you. You really changed everything for me. The more time I spent with you, the better I felt. Things improved drastically between Chitra and me because I used to get back home in a good mood. When I started behaving this way, she also responded well to it."
"What do you plan to do now Arun?"
"Plan? Pia I've a wife and a son."
"You have a son?"
"Yes, I do. And I can't leave them for you. I don't love you Pia. You are a very good friend. That day at Marine Drive I just got carried away. I wanted to tell you the truth after kissing you, but I feared losing you. That's why I didn't tell you anything all this while. But I never used you. I mean, I hung around with you, but I never took advantage of you. You called me first for lunch. You asked for the movie first. I'd refused initially. But I thought you'll feel bad, so I agreed to accompany you. Pia, let's be friends."
I was out of words. All I could manage to say was, "You know what Arun? I'd thought it would be very difficult for me to get over you. But you made it very easy for me. I'm glad to get rid of you Arun. Goodbye."
I walked out. Without looking back even once.
I engrossed myself in my work. Though I'd told Arun that it wouldn't be difficult to get over him any more, but it was extremely difficult. It's been three years since our last meeting, but even today, every time I think about him, my heart goes numb for that moment.
I've learnt to live with this numbness. I can't stop living, can I?
Its life after all, and not a fairy tale.